The One That I Will Love For The Rest Of My Life

He's Muhammad Zahir Reza
same age as me, elder than me a few days =)
met him at a Camp
thinking that he was an asshole =P
but turns out, he's not
get to be friends with him in a funny way
fell in love with each other in the same time
anniversary is on 23rd Aug (will never forget this day)
he's so sweet, wonderful, loving and romantic =D (yes, you are dear)
I know that he loves me more than anything in the world =)
and I love him just the way he loves me
love him for being who he is
no lies but just the truth (but I don't know if he really tells me the truth all the time, fingers crossed)
I let him do what ever he wants to do (but don't be too over lar)
sometimes in this relationship he still can be an total asshole
sometimes can menyakitkan hati I plak
benggang tau!!
but I relax, what can I do right?? =)
I miss him a lot whenever we're far away from each other
we sometimes meet twice in 3 - 5 months (damn sad weyh)
because he's studying in Kelantan and I'm travelling everywhere for my clinical posting
so its kinda stressful
the two of us will dream about our own future
just wishing that it will come true one day =)
I can just smile suddenly for no reason (crazy huh??)
I just can't get him out of my mind
he's in my head all the time even though I'm doing bits and pieces of things
its amazing how can someone be in love so badly =D
sometimes he doesn't reply my msges and I leave it as it is
thinking that maybe he's busy or whatever shit it is
but sometimes its kinda hurt when he doesn't reply
but what can I do??
so i just leave it as it is
and go and live my own stressing life thinking about studies, work and stuff
can't just keep thinking about him and leave everything behind right
but no matter what happen
he will be the one I love for the rest of my life
he's everything to me
I will love him forever and just him
and I hope he does the same thing to me =)
I love you Zahir Reza!!
=D

consider lucky or not...

jst nw,me,liew & loke went into a kopitiam @ inti college to hv our dinner.we had mixed rice,& guess wht,there's a chinese man whom suddenly offer us a dinner..& i was like WHT THE FUCK??so i tot he was jst joking,but then he was serious.so 3 of us were really malu.i wanted to reject it,bt then the women who sell the mixed rice told us "since he blanje u,u go and sit with him la.." and i was really like c'mon....WHT THE FUCK???WHO U THINK WE ARE???CHICKEN IZZIT A.K.A PROSTITUTE....and then guess wht tht man is drunk....and tht women who sell mixed rice is a blady indon...c'mon we're professional future nurses OKAY!!NT LIKE SOME CHEAP CHICKEN..OKAY.

my experience through out my nasional service at Kem Pelangi Hill Resort Part 2

ok..before i forget what happen in camp i better blog right now..hehe..so yea...so after the h1n1 inccident everybody went back to camp and hv their activites as usual...and then the next day theres totally no activities at all...so its very very boring.and i was like kinda sleeping the whole day...yeap...so yea...the first few days went back to camp was like so damn boring...then there's one night there's a news abt hving shooting stars in the morning and we was like planning to see it...but we finally fall asleep..hahaha...we hv the practical hutan thingy goin on..and it went kinda well....then they hv this stupid education fair...so damn boring 1...damn cheap la...thts all i can say..:P...on 17th Aug 2009..this is the day tht i will nv forget...the most adventerous day of my life...and it can be said as the most amazing day tht ever happen in my life for so far...coz we went jungle tracking...damn...it was so damn freaking awesome...everything went well in the jungle...my team the bravo taming sari guys was so damn helfull and this is the first time i saw them berkerjasama...haha...they were damn helpfull...especially zahir....he did help me alot tho...all the girls was all like so weak...but they still push themself...yea....many of them fell...well of course i felt too...coz it was so slippery...we suppoese to sta there for 2days 1night...and it didnt happen bcoz due to the rain in tht evening the comander ask us to go back to camp....so it was really damn fun lar...then after we reach to the camp....in tht evening we hv to cook out own dinner me and lee yen in 1 team...haha...good thing to hv her too...hahha...coz the other groups was like so messy and their dinner all tk jadi...hahaha...and i mayb can say me and lee yen's dinner was the most delicious of em all lar...oh yea...in thejungle..there's so many mosquitoes...huge....damn scary man....and then there's so many ants and worms tht i hv never seen b4...eewww....so yea...wht i can say is i was just bitter and sweet memories in the jungle...and i will nv forget it....zahir tht day was so good...he helped me alot....coz usually he always like kinda like to bully me -.-" haha...and we usually fight as in funny type of fight...haha...he was really good....so yea...the jungle tracking was so damn nice....then on tht night...gosh...after the jungle tracking my whole body all damn pain...it was like cramp....but i think its worth it...haha...and they hv kembara halangan on the next day...i cant do it...coz of my body...so yea...and we got number 1..haha...then the next day we hv kayak comp..i joined it...it was so fun...i went for the singles,doubles and the couples...it was so damn tiring...exhausted man 3 days berturut-turut hv heavy activities...damn...on tht nite we wirawati bravo wrote a letter and bought some stuff for the wira bravo saying thank you for everything in the jungle...then on 20th Aug 2009 hving ceramah abt HIV/AIDS...so we went on to class...and guess wht...i found out tht the guy tht i like.....he likes me....hahaha...and its zahir....and the whole class knows...so yea....we hv photoshoot on the next day....it was awesome....and we hv sports competition on tht day...i joined the volley ball....but we just got 2nd price...22nd Aug 2009...puasa starts today...and this is my first time puasa..haha...it was ok lar...can tahan ...not bad...on 23rd Aug 2009...zahir and i coupled....haha...good news huh...hehe....then the next day hv intergration class...and it so happen tht im in the smae class with zahir...lol....we've made each others life turned upside down tho..hahahaand i eally cnt believe we end up together...i tot it will nv happen...lol..and guess wht...the whole camp knows tht we're together...lol...on 30th of aug...we were hving countdown for merdeka...so we watched this movied named hati malaya...was very nice....then we hv koir practice...coz we're hving koir on our graduation night...so yea...we were practicing so hard...on 4th SEPT 2009...GRADUATION DAY.!!cnt believe it...its the last day...we had our Majilis Penutupan PLKN Kump 3 Siri 6/2009.got out certs...yea...and it was the last time wearing full celoreng....thne on tht nite...we hv Majilis Malam Mesra..which we hv to perform our koir and recieve hapmpers and stuff...as usual lar..then zahir will always sit next to me...and he said how pretty and beautiful am i...and he was like toatally speechless tht nite..lol...after everything me and him lepak at a dark corner and i kissed him on the cheek and he was like gonna melt...lol...yea...it was the most wonderful night for both of us...and i wish tht nite will just stop...after everything..we went back to dorm hv a lil party....opening the hampers and stuff...and slept around 3 sumthing like tht then woke up at 7...yea...nt enough of sleep and i was having a lil bit of fever..sucks....lepak wit zahir for a while before i leave...yea...had a good time...but the time wasnt enough.....everybody was like crying in the morning....but i didnt cry...i just coundlnt cry...lol.....so yea...thts the ending of the story of my life in nasional service...and i hope 1 day i can make a visit to tht camp..coz its just too much memories....^^

my experience through out my nasional sevice Kem Pelangi Hill Resort

ok,let's see..i hv no idea where to start...lol..ok let's just start form the first day then..well,the first day was totally bored and sucks,coz as usual,we're not use to the enviroment...was really missing my home,my room my bed,my friends and all...haha yea...we have to wake up at 5.30 everyday except for sat and sun coz its a holiday.oh yea...when i was there,i started to write diary,coz it's really too bored..so yeap...and read few novels in few days...haha...im not like tht at home..lol...the first day for baris and all,i almost fainted and i dnt noe y...hahaha..mayb b'coz i dnt really eat...coz i'm so damn not use to the food...its so eww...gosh...and we only get to hv our phone on sun..haih..where go fair??hmph....well...we have character building class everyday,modul 1 and 2...modul 1 was so fun,coz i hv the most sporting group,i became more brave and more...lol....cant believe it isn't it??haha...in tht class i get to noe a lot of frenz from diff places for exp form sabah and sarawak...i get to noe dis guy his name is fizran he's form sabah...he's so funny and hilarious...makes ppl laugh and love to be leading the group and he's a good leader lar...and he make me a good leader too...from tht charater building class start,i've kinda change alot lar....thx to him...thx fizran...:) so every monday morning we hv aerobics then every tues till thurs we hv normal senaman then every friday we hv senam seni m'sia...it was fun tho...hehe...then we were devided into four groups which is a for alpha b for bravo c for charlie and d for delta.and im in the bravo team..haha...so then we were given task...which is kkj a.k.a kontrak kita janji means like we have to create our group name which is TAMING SARI and etc.lol...and then a few days later i was chosen by the teacher to be a squad leader for my bravo team..i was so shock but happy but worried abt i cnt handle the team..but then later it was kinda ok...but the team mates are just so bad...they're nt a good listener...and etc...alot of prob...hmph...starting to hv eye bags d..haha...look like a panda...haha...we've done the flying fox and all d...kayak and rakit,shooting with a m16...all was so damn fun...of abt the shooting...we hv to wake up early in the morning at 3 and we start out journey at 5...gosh..tht day was so damn tiring...but it was worth it lar....then we had our mid term break for a week..which is everybody can go home lar...yea....we've also learned abt how to read a map and a compass....then on 29th of july the kem celeb the ppl who were born on july...like a b'day party lar...everybody is like throwing cakes and all..damn fun...hahaha...so...now im at home coz of my kem suspecting the virus of h1n1...yea thts y im here writing dis blog..haha..yea...ltz of ppl were sick and tehy were quarantine and all....and im goin back to kem to continue the ns on sun..yea goin back on 9th aug...so yea...im done till here...u will noe wht happen next when i come back...wink*..

leaving>.< back on 5th Sept >.<

hellow hellow!!ladies and gentlemen...i hv an announcment here...escpecially to my dearest friends...i'm going to NS(PLKN) on Wed 17th June >...<

trying to whisper near your ear to tell you that i've fell in love with you...

you're the one that i'm in love with,
try to whisper near your ear to tell you,
i miss you terribly,
i felt in love wiht you so deeply,
and sometimes i just wish that,
everything could just slow down,
or even whis that everything would just stop,
why do i keep running from the truth?
i think i'm crazy in love with you,
cause this feeling wont go away,
all i ever think about is you,
sometimes i try to hide,what i feel inside,
and turn around,
you're with her now,
i just can't figure it out,
why you're ao hard to forget,
i can't seem to fae the truth....

don't ever

don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like,
coz,
the one you like,
will leave yuo for the one they love...